Have you ever sensed there was something more you were meant for?
Years ago I felt a void in my life I could not explain. I was a Christian filled with the Holy Spirit. Wasn’t I? Shouldn’t I have felt that my life was at least near perfect? I had a beautiful family, a great job and some great friends. There were times I used each of them to try to fill that void, but never for long.
I was supposed to be accomplishing something else. But what? I was already filled to the brim with caring for my young family and more work than I had time for.
Does your heart ever long for more? During my quiet time with God, though it be inconsistent at the time, I would ask for guidance. Jesus, what is it I was made for? This can’t be it! I love my family, but I feel empty? Is this what it’s all about and then I die?
So many times I looked back through my journal and thought back over my life. God answered my questions each time, but I tossed them aside time and time again assuming I was being selfish or that surely I wasn’t understanding clearly.
Years passed and the inclination to do more kept weighing on my thoughts. There were clues along the way, but I continued to look for fulfilment in other directions. There were times I even dabbled in activities that were similar, but they never hit the mark. God’s mark. Was I ignoring God’s whisper for more reasons than I’d like to admit? Or was He still preparing me knowing full well that I wouldn’t act on it until the He said “GO!”
Solomon wrote “There is a time for everything, a season for every activity under heaven.” (Ecclesiastes 3:1) Solomon knew that God provides cycles of life that prepare us to fulfil His calling on each of us. Just like God is perfect, so is His timing. It was time. I just needed the courage to plow forward as my sweet sister-in-law would say.
So, I prayed, crying out to God and even questioning his seriousness. “God, you’re joking right? I’m a nurse! I’m not a writer! Sure I write, but not in complete sentences and correct punctuation and a lot of those arrow things that drop words into my sentences because my brain got ahead of my hand creating run on sentences … or for other’s to read! Please don’t do this to me.”
But He didn’t budge. Gently, He would wake me before he allowed the sun to rise and I would say, “Yes, Lord?” And He would say, “Write.” I would cry out to him, “WRITE WHAT?” With that question I realized I had stopped fighting Him and had surrendered to this calling. I’m still not sure what that will look like, but this is a start.
Do you feel God tugging on your heart to step out in faith for Him? Don’t wait. Pray and ask Jesus to reveal clearly what He’s asking you to do. He has a plan for each and every one of us. We just have to choose to accept it and plow forward.
Then I heard the Lord asking, “Whom should I send as a messenger to my people? Who will go for us?” And I said, “Lord, I’ll go! Send me.”
Isaiah knew he was a sinful man standing before the King, the Lord Almighty! Humbled, he gave up his life and said, “Send me.” Just like Isaiah, God has a plan for you and me.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)
So honor the Lord and serve him wholeheartedly. Put away forever the idols your ancestors worshiped when they lived beyond the Euphrates River and in Egypt. Serve the Lord alone. (Joshua 24:14-15)
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