18 The Lord is near to the brokenhearted
and saves the crushed in spirit.
We were headed to the city driving down the not-so-wide country two lane. Lucky for us, we got behind an 18-wheeler (LOL). Since the speed limit is 55 mph, I at least wanted to drive 50 mph. Getting behind this vehicle wasn’t getting us to our destination as quickly as we would have hoped.
At the slow pace of 45 mph I tried to pass, but my vision was hindered. The rain was still pouring, and the water from the highway was being thrown up on my windshield from the big tires. I tried to peek around to see if I could possibly pass, but the over-spray was too much. I was too nervous to even try. Some of the oncoming cars had on their headlights, but some didn’t. This made me even more anxious about trying to get around the oversized truck. Finally the rain slowed for a brief moment, and I was able speed around.
In life, we may be put into situations that make us feel like we are driving behind an 18-wheeler in the pouring rain. We are unable to see around the obstacle. The situation we are dealing with makes it very difficult to understand or know whether we will ever make it around the circumstance. The mist keeps spewing on our windows, which keeps us from knowing what is ahead. We are stuck and not able to see what is in front of us.
My son-in-law was recently diagnosed with esophageal cancer. He and my daughter have hit the ground running. From appointment to appointment, from test to test, from blood work to labs— go go go! They haven’t been traveling the speed limit; they have been flying around the racetrack at full speed. At such a young age, you have to go with full force. They know this and the doctors know this.
Many things are known— the type of cancer, what chemo should work, where the cancer is located, what radiation should be transmitted, how many treatments he is scheduled for, what his blood work tells the physician. He knows what prescription to take when he is nauseated, when he needs to rest, and when he can exercise. But, and there is always that one word BUT, there are things that are unknown. That is the scary part.
What lies ahead after all the treatments and after the surgery? What lies in front of the big truck we are traveling behind in the downpour? Are we going to be able to pass without problems?
This is where God comes in. HE KNOWS! Because He knows, we must trust in Him and the outcome.
My daughter has a slight problem with this. Her personality leads her to be impatient and worrisome. As we visited, tears flowed from her eyes. As I looked at her, she seemed to shrink back to the days when she was a tiny two year old with blonde hair and big blue glass eyes. Even though she is 26, she still seems like a child to me. As she cried and expressed her worries, my mind went into comforting mode. My mind raced, and I searched for wisdom as to what to say:
“We must not worry we must have faith. It isn’t healthy for us to say what if. We can only say God’s got this. We must trust, trust what is in front of that 18-wheeler that we can’t see. Trust and know that God is clearing the road ahead so that we can pass and finally see the rainbow.”
2 Timothy 1:7 (NLV)
7 For God did not give us a spirit of fear. He gave us a spirit of power and of love and of a good mind.
Grapes must be crushed, olives must be cured, pearls must be recovered, gold must be extracted, diamonds are burned, and even through all of this, they are transformed into something wonderful. It is when we are crushed, cured, recovered, extracted, and burned that we are transformed. We go into the diagnosis one way, and we come out stronger and more blessed than before.
Trust in God He knows, He knows what is in front of us. Stay in His word and rely on Him for strength.
Proverbs 3:5 (NIV)
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.